I can't wait 'til.....

How many times have I said that? Probably too many!!!!
I understand the concept of living in the moment but I have a really hard time applying it to the bigger picture. I can narrow my focus and attend to what I doing (be in the moment) but a part of me is planning or thinking about the rest of the day or the rest of the week. I love to plan, schedule and set goals, it is part of what makes me tick. If asked to attend something, I would automatically begin to arrange that day to make it fit.
Here is how it has gotten in my way lately; I was all excited to start my holidays and not have to minutely plan everyday in order to meet my daily goals. When I am at work, I need to plan each day so that I can maximize my workout and at home times. I couldn't wait to start my holidays so that I wouldn't have to do that. Unfortunately that tight schedule is what I thrive on, so all month I have been trying to figure out how come I am not motivated to get stuff done, it has merely been that I have too much time on my hands and not enough of a tight schedule.
I sometimes find myself wishing and waiting for the next thing instead of enjoying what is happening right now. I am not really sure how to stop this or re-focus myself but I do know that being aware of it is half the battle. I am sure that meditation will help me figure out how to stay in the moment. That seems to be a theme lately, it must mean something.........

So many lessons, so little time

I broke my toe, twice. Last week, I think, I broke it while helping to teach a class. I didn't really notice it at first, well, a few days. My foot was sore but I have been dealing with some foot pain on and off for the last little while so I didn't pay attention. I figured that it was more of the same. I have broken toes before and didn't think that it would interfere much with my training. I taped them up and went on my merry way, practicing forms, etc. So this week, at the beginning of the week, I attended class and was participating and having a great time. I paid no attention to my sore toe at all until afterwards when it started to hurt more. I iced and elevated it and thought it was okay. Then it continued to hurt more and more, I showed it to my husband(he has fixed many broken toes) and he announced that I had re-broken the toe and it felt like the bones were over-lapping. It was not very comfortable getting it re-set but I learned a valuable lesson.....let the bones heal. I took two days off from everything, not an easy task!!! (there have been reports of crankiness from my family members). It worked and it is beginning to heal.
I have learned a couple of valuable lessons through this. I attended my class on Friday and did not participate and I was able to listen objectively(?) and really hear the message that Sifu was giving us. Instead of going through the motions when doing a form, I need to experience it. I have been trying to put this into my practice(for two days) and it is not as easy as I thought it would be. It makes sense to me and I look forward to fully experiencing all of my forms. I know that I can get there with more mindful practice.
I need to pay attention to the messages that my body is sending me, slow down when I need to, change my practice to accommodate injuries, and be patient with myself.
I don't like not working on my kung fu, I need to figure out better ways to take it easy. I think that if i can find ways to work on my kung fu when I can't fully do it then I won't get so restless (read:cranky).
All in all, an interesting week.
Until next week, work hard and have fun

Friends

The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had. ~Author Unknown
I have spent the last couple of weeks trying to figure out how to be a good friend, I think that the above quote sums it up. I often struggle with what to say and what to do when a friend is in need, I think that I just need to be....a friend.
Until next week,
Work hard and have fun!

Blogging... best tool ever!

I forgot to blog!!! I am not sure that has happened to me in quite a while. I have been so wrapped up in trying to figure out what is going on in my head that I forgot to use one of the best tools that I have, blogging! I feel like my get up and go, got up and went. I want to go and work out, it is fun when I do. I miss that feeling I get when I am running, I always feel like there is nothing that I can't accomplish. I love that feeling when the workout is over, I feel proud that I did what I said that I would do (even if it is only to myself, it is important to me). So what is the problem? I am not really sure. I had planned to work harder than ever this month as I have a bit more free time on my hands and I keep coming up with cheap excuses not to do what I love the most. Some insight would be good right about now.......
So nothing is jumping up and biting me so here is the plan; I will get up and do my workout and stop trying to figure out how come I don't feel like it. Either the feeling will go away or I will figure it out as soon as I stop worrying about it so much.
Until next week, work hard and have fun!