Dreams

Beliefs

I had the opportunity to be a part of something amazing this weekend. My friend invited me to a baptism, I have been to many before and I thought that I knew what to expect. I was pleasantly surprised to find nine young people standing in front of the congregation, willing to declare their convictions. They each spoke about their journey, the support that they have received, and the path that they have chosen to follow. There was not a dry eye in the place! The passion and conviction was so strong that I am sure that many in the audience wanted to stand up and share theirs as well, I know that I did.
As an adult, it is sometimes hard to say what we believe and to stand by our principles. I drew strength from these young people and their beliefs and hope that I can continue to stand tall for what I believe in.
Thank you my friends for inviting me into your world.
Til next week, work hard and have fun.

Habitat for Humanity Gang

It's feels good to be surrounded by awesome people. Thank you for spending the day contributing to our community.

Til next, work hard and have fun.

More about me

For the past few weeks, I have felt like I am in exactly the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing. It is an amazing feeling. I am loving it. My training is going well, work is going fantastic (with some interesting opportunities opening up in the next couple of months), and the way that I process information is changing daily. I am looking at everything through different eyes and I like what I see. I used to question my every action, thought and spoken word (worried about saying the wrong thing, doing something stupid, etc), now I accept who I am and what I do. I am no longer constantly worried about what anyone else thinks. That doesn't mean that I have ripped the filter off and I say whatever I want, it means that I am not walking on egg shells around myself. What has changed, mindful meditation everyday. I have been learning about meditation throughout this year and I have been focusing on quieting (pretty sure that it is a word) my brain and slowing down the thought process so that I can figure things out. Well, it seems that I am figuring things out. I have more purpose to my meditation and self reflection, it has a path now. I feel so good, I have so much more physical energy, I feel smarter and able to handle anything that comes my way.
Til next week, work hard and have fun!

A litte about me....

I have spent the last 12 years in a battle with myself that was affecting how I live my life. I am obsessive and compulsive in regards to food. When I am happy, I eat. When I am sad, I eat. And any other emotion in between, I eat. I have been on countless diets, fad and otherwise. I have spent thousands (not a misprint) of dollars trying to control my weight, be smaller, not fat, etc. I was actually punishing myself with each diet. I would always think that everything would be better when I lost weight,finished my diet plan, etc. I didn't understand why I kept coming back to the same issue.
I now feel like I have been set free from something that was holding me back from reaching my potential. I discovered that I was using food to stuff my emotions and not really let them be. What can happen to people(me), is that when they experience an emotion (positive or negative) it evokes a memory that they would not like to rehash, so they do something to stop that emotion from happening. Eventually, eating becomes what they do, driven not by hunger, but by their emotions. Once that I realized that, through tons of work on my self and some meditation, I have managed to change the messages going on in my head. I do two things now that I didn't know that I could, I eat when I am hungry and I stop when I am satisfied. I feel fantastic, I am satisfied with less food and I have no desire to eat junk food (chocolate, candy, chips). It is worth mentioning that I had a little help from a fantastic book; "Women, Food and God" by Geneen Roth. I think that anyone that struggles with their weight, can't figure out how come diets don't work for them, is frustrated with how they are feeling, should read this book. It is about the food you eat, the love you have for yourself and your spiritual journey. It is definitely worth your time.
I know that I talked about this last week, but I wasn't sure that I did the topic justice my just talking about the book. I wanted to share my story and show the impact that changing your mindset can have.
Until next week, work hard and have fun.