I have had the best week. I made a commitment to myself to create a training plan that I could stick to and I am doing it. It feels fabulous. Since I made this mental shift and decided to make my Kung Fu my own, many aspects have seemed to fall into place;
1. I am keeping promises that I make to myself by saying I'm going to work out tomorrow and then getting up and doing it. I think this is the foundation for all the other cool stuff that is happening.
2. I have been practicing Tai Chi for approximately one year and something just didn't feel right. On Saturday morning, Sifu Dennis and I figured out that if I bend my legs more my chi will flow better. Now my Tai Chi has gone from feeling cool to feeling incredible. The flow in my Kung Fu forms has also improved as a direct result of this eye opening experience.
3. I was working with my stick yesterday and received some help with my double articulation. (I've never been able to figure it out) Suddenly, I understood it, I was doing it. As I was watching myself do it, all the advice and direction that I have received throughout the years was flowing through my brain and I was able to apply it.
Each one of these things feel like an amazing break through to me. I want to jump and down and yell, " I get it, I get it!!!!". Of course, that would not be mature.
It seems to me that I am now on the path that I need to be on to be the martial artist that I want to be, and I have developed the insight to know when I need to change directions. I feel like I am open to receive the help and direction that I need. I think, before, that I was so focused on doing things right, pleasing my teachers and having them think that I was doing well that I was blind to what I needed to do. I needed to take charge of my Kung Fu. I needed to own it. I created a training plan that is challenging and realistic. It is something that I can follow. It is not what everyone else is doing, it is tailor-made for me by me.(I was inspired by Sifu Beckett).
This mental shift has given me a boost of energy that blows me away. I am enthusiastically approaching my training everyday, I am attending to the daily tasks of living and going to work in a positive head space. At the end of the day, I go to sleep, content in the knowledge that I have given and received all that the day had to offer.
63 weeks to grading
