In the Moment?

Yesterday, I spent most of the day trying to figure out what I was going to write about. Well, it came to me late in the evening, the truth. I did not have a very good week. My work was the center of the dissatisfaction. It was many different things, which is usually the case, but here are a few. We (as a group) are dealing with some team changes, all of them good but emotionally draining. We are dealing with some tough things with our clientele, the main focus is not feeling loved and not wanting to live with that feeling anymore. To say the least, each day had me dragging my sorry butt home to the couch in hopes of not moving for a very long time. I did not give into the desire to do nothing, I just went to bed early in hopes of gaining enough energy for another day.

How does this relate to my training? Well, I am not sure that I know how to put all that stuff aside and focus on my training. I can do my forms and techniques thoughtlessly and keep my numbers up, but I am having a difficult time staying in the moment and keeping an eye open for detail. When I am on afternoon shift (3-11), I do my training in the morning and I wake up fresh ready for a new day and away I go. When I am on day shift (7-3), I bring all my baggage home with me and I have a hard time shutting it down so I can focus on my training. When I have a good day a work this is not a problem, it is the other days that worry me. I don't want to get so far behind in my training that it feels impossible to catch up.

I have been meditating in the morning to start my day out freshly, perhaps if I meditate after a tough shift, then I can get some of my focus back.

If anyone has any tips or ideas, please feel free to offer them up, I would appreciate them.

Sihing Robyn Kichko
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB, Canada