A litte about me....

I have spent the last 12 years in a battle with myself that was affecting how I live my life. I am obsessive and compulsive in regards to food. When I am happy, I eat. When I am sad, I eat. And any other emotion in between, I eat. I have been on countless diets, fad and otherwise. I have spent thousands (not a misprint) of dollars trying to control my weight, be smaller, not fat, etc. I was actually punishing myself with each diet. I would always think that everything would be better when I lost weight,finished my diet plan, etc. I didn't understand why I kept coming back to the same issue.
I now feel like I have been set free from something that was holding me back from reaching my potential. I discovered that I was using food to stuff my emotions and not really let them be. What can happen to people(me), is that when they experience an emotion (positive or negative) it evokes a memory that they would not like to rehash, so they do something to stop that emotion from happening. Eventually, eating becomes what they do, driven not by hunger, but by their emotions. Once that I realized that, through tons of work on my self and some meditation, I have managed to change the messages going on in my head. I do two things now that I didn't know that I could, I eat when I am hungry and I stop when I am satisfied. I feel fantastic, I am satisfied with less food and I have no desire to eat junk food (chocolate, candy, chips). It is worth mentioning that I had a little help from a fantastic book; "Women, Food and God" by Geneen Roth. I think that anyone that struggles with their weight, can't figure out how come diets don't work for them, is frustrated with how they are feeling, should read this book. It is about the food you eat, the love you have for yourself and your spiritual journey. It is definitely worth your time.
I know that I talked about this last week, but I wasn't sure that I did the topic justice my just talking about the book. I wanted to share my story and show the impact that changing your mindset can have.
Until next week, work hard and have fun.