Sunday, January 11, 2015

More radom thoughts than I originally intended

I have read some amazing blogs in the last couple of weeks, my teammates displaying insight, growth and progress. I feel like I don't have anything to contribute.
Each day I have to fight the fight to stay focused, stay on track and practice mindfully. I am not proud of this struggle, I am somewhat embarrassed.....I figured after all this trying really hard, I wouldn't have to try so hard everyday. I was wrong. I know that we all struggle in our own way, with different things (physical, mental and spiritual), and that I shouldn't be embarrassed about struggling with the same thing everyday for so long but I am.
I haven't been blogging because I feel like I don't have anything different to say.....today was hard but I got some stuff done! Tomorrow is a new day!!!!
I am trying really hard to stay positive and not give up, it is one of the hardest fights that I have had so far.
I did a lot of growing today, I am a better person than I was this morning - that is something.
Oh yeah, and I figured something out today! I am not embarrassed to bust out a form or some push ups but I am extremely shy about acts of kindness. That's my contribution to our conversation from Sat.

2 comments:

Jeff Brinker said...

You always have something to say and share. Remember that. If you carefully consider your purpose for journalling and do not just use it to vent and fuel negativity, you will develop the skills and vocabulary that will serve your journey and others as well. Let's get together this week to talk and maybe have a look at your forms.

Melanie Beckett said...

Maybe you're struggling with your blogging, but you contribute a lot in different ways. Try to keep that in mind. You have a very powerful presence.