Sunday, October 7, 2012

Influence

One of the things that has influenced me the most is the leadership requirement. It is not what I thought it was going to be. I figured that we would be told what needs to be done and then we would go forth and make it so. I thought that since I enjoyed leadership that it would not be a difficult or challenging requirement. I did not fully understand the requirement until  recently. I understand now that it is not about any one of us improving our leadership skills, it is about each of us being a leader. We are all leading the school, some of us are outspoken and loudly encouraging others to do stuff (get involved, try harder, etc) and some of us are quietly being amazing and encouraging others with our actions ( always doing push ups, forms,being there, etc). There different types of leaders and different types of leadership and I think we are all taking strides in the direction that will serve us best. Personally, I have been doing things that I have never done before and I kind of like it. I used to think that I was leading by doing what we were supposed to do, I am learning that I can also lead by doing what needs to be done. It is a bit scarey at first but I am getting used to it. I find myself thinking, am I doing this right? Is this how I am supposed to be doing? The answer is yes and yes because I am doing it. I am hoping to continue to grow in this area and learn more about leading people in the direction that they need to go.
One of the other requirements that has served me so far is the one where we have to mend a relationship. I have been wanting to mend the relationship with my brother Tim for a few years but I was kind of chicken. I was afraid that if I made an effort of any sort it would not be reciprocated. So after having this on my list for a few years, I took the plunge this year. I invited him for lunch and honestly told him how I felt, that I missed hanging out with him and hoped that we could move forward in our relationship. I was surprised to learn that he missed me too. We have only seen each other a few times so far but it is going well and there is a major bonus. Katie is getting to know her uncle and aunt and they are getting along quite well and creating a relationship of their own.
I am also supposed to write about my personal requirements that have served me well. The thing is that I have a difficult time doing stuff for me. I put two things on my list that I have always wanted to do, they are not for anyone else, just me and I keep putting off doing anything about it. I will leave them on my goal list until I do something about them as I don't want to give up.
Those are my thoughts for this week

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